Winning myself

Forward, onwards I go, rushing for the finish line,

All I thought about was the goal that will define who I am,

The rat race was hard I pushed myself, in every way I pushed myself

Little did I know I was pushing myself to a deadly cliff...

Did you see my reflection, how I drowned myself with food,

 And I thought it was passion, but it was deeper than the ocean to really see what lies underneath,

I was angry, I was broken, I was a lot of ugly things and yet I appeared fine I manage to smile,

But inside I was fighting myself, a battle that I never knew existed,

I found myself in a hospital bed bleeding and fighting for life,

Alone in a cold room surrounded with white walls with an empty heart,

I journeyed to another place seeking challenge not knowing I have not yet conquered the challenge within,

I found friendly faces but found hostility as well, as I journey my health failed me so I had to return home,

But home was not to be found, home was a place where love is,

I wallowed as I waited thinking why my plans was not materializing,

I was battling my thoughts, my anger, my anxiety, my brokenness,

Then I realized the opportunity that God has given me,

“He told my heart, my child stop and rest for a while take time to heal, learn the value of patience once you have mastered it then you can sail into any seas”

So I sat in a corner watching the trees dance, watching the birds fly, I took heart the peace and joy God has given....I’m still waiting but with joy in my heart.

The Beggar

An old woman sat in a dirty corner with a bandana on her head,

Her arms widely stretched and her palm open wide,

She looked at me with her puppy eyes,

I wanted to hold her and dance with her like there are no pains in this world,

Wash away her sorrows as the sun shines on her shoulders, 

I wanted to sing to her to clear her worried skies,

But to her I am but a stranger who cannot offer her a home,

So I dropped a bill less than what I can afford, and told her to you this 

bill maybe the world,

To me it’s a simple offering to see you smile, a smile that I lost years ago,

Today I may have saved you from hunger, but you have no idea how you have saved me,

 By reminding me how beautiful it is to smile for you resembled my late mother.....