A Writer’s Pride

Endless nights I dream and heaved

These restless visions I receive

It flashes right in front of me

Vivid phantasms that I see

On a white blank page I choose to inscribe,

To lament a writer’s pride

A shadow of unfolding history

Of fading astounding memory

It is the soul of unending fame

A resounding voice of an immortal name

A being that creates to inspire

Sophisticatedly magnified the elements of desire

It shapes the minds of a utopian society

And binds the cardinal virtue of unfailing piety

But as I breathe my existence is ignored

Like sand castles that annihilate at the shore

My footprints simply fade as I walk the beach

Painting life with manifold of figures of speech

But woe to an astonishing surprise

A writer’s steadfast stature, bequeaths upon the day he dies.

Dear Stranger Dance with Me

Underneath the cherry blossom tree

I stood in front of you as stars crowns my head,

Your nearness fills my sanity, floating like a feathery snow in a lazy winter day,

As my cheeks gently touch your humble manly chin, I breathe and inhaled gently savouring every moment,

Forever those sweet mesmerizing eyes will linger in my fleeting memory,

Can you hear the beating of my heart like a drum that chants a tribal hymn,

Where warriors endlessly draw their swords and send their enemies to their death,

For the fear of uncertainty lurks beneath this angelic smile,

Yet for one moment I will hear no evil, as your arms embrace this bashful heart of mine,

Our fingers entwined and our souls journey a million mile,

I shall bear your fruit, and it may drain my vigorous dignity,

Yet it will be the mere root of my existence, the only thing I shall breathe for

Truly I am a wary woman, and I have broken the walls that chains my ominous heart for a faceless man,

For a single second of warmth as I sway in the midst of this wanderer,

Screaming in ecstasy, as the scent of his hair drowns me in pure bliss.

In his arms I shall play the game of chance,

And I shall master the dreadful bout of love,

Hear my plea, cease my woes,

Dear courtly stranger dance with me and I shall spend an indelible lifetime knowing you!

Wish Upon a Star

One day I may breath my last, 

 I may pass you by without meeting you in the eye

But did you feel the skip of my heartbeat a mile away

Like the wind I touched your face,

There’s no words to describe the beauty I found in your soul

You may uniquely define the word innocence,

 For you willingly raged the gates of heaven with your resounding voice,

In my bedroom I cried and wailed for life to spare you a corrupted mind,

I willingly surrendered my dreams to see yours in fulfilment

An angel forbidden to love, an ordinary girl with an extra ordinary faith

A love I could not grasp, a love I could not keep, a language left unspoken

And yet it screams and echoes throughout the universe,

 I give you my strength in times of confusion; you are never alone in times of defeat

I maybe beyond your years but your youth is the sole reason I live

Be the man I dream you to be, the person you have always been

Never waste a single moment on superficial joy, for life has given you all the possibilities

Embrace every pain it will mould you to a better person,

 Love with no malice, make worthy sacrifices

For you  I have taken the next shuttle to the moon

Only to wish upon a star....

A Deep Shade of Blue

These wounds I kept for a million years has shed me a thousand tears

I battled the darkness that hunts my thoughts which magnified all my fears

I swayed and danced with the wind enamoured of this new found friend

I struggled with laughter and joy as I reached out for his hand

Somehow I knew no matter what the odds I had to make a stand

A stranger in the crowd, trying to make a difference

I had found the voice that brought me back to life

It made everything worthwhile the pain and the strife

If you only knew how much you mean to me

I would have painted a thousand hues only to make you see

What breaks my heart and tortures my mind

Those restless nights I deeply wished to leave behind

So I speak in riddles, in endless clues....           

If only the sky ain’t blue then I would have stopped loving you

The Little Rubber Ball

What am I ? Nothing but a simple toy, I get tossed a lot, dribbled and pat,

Everyday same routine when I’m of no use they put me in a corner, like a little dot,

Unlike this little golden figurine that everyone marvels at,

Everyone stares at it, as I sit and watch,

Up there where the light shines so bright,

The sunlight touches it golden skin and illuminate at your sight,

People awed with mouth open wide,

Give praises, softly caress and brushes its side,

Everyday I would sit and cry wishing I was that little golden figurine,

But I look at my smelly rubber body, so dirty and unadorned, not so masculine,

One day without knowing my owner danced like a careless child,

So caught up in the moment with her arms open wide,

She brushed the golden figurine and it crashed on the wall,

It was so unexpected she couldn’t break the fall,

That little figurine turned out to be not of pure gold,

It was so delicate, I was not told,

I thought it was strong and tough my senses lied,

Only to find out it was hollow inside,

So it was swept off the floor never to be seen again,

Off it went into the trash bin,

Here I am a little dirty rubber ball, but if they throw or toss me at the wall

I don’t need anything to break my fall,

I won’t break apart, I won’t get sacked,

Cause with my unique rubber skin I will simply bounce back.

Nobody's Watching

With eyes wide open I watch you walk towards me,

Smiling like a fool, you reach out for me,

Unless you really mean it go ahead and hold me,

I looked out the window expecting to see unfamiliar faces,

Expecting unhappy and angry reactions from different places,

Just to check and figure out what’s real from a fantasy,

I’m scared to be swept off far from reality,

I have nothing against fairy tales for I am a child trapped in a woman’s body,

But I cannot act or play a role only for the entire world to see,

I want and I deserve a peaceful unbroken family,

Where both our priority is you and me,

Some people think expectations are harmless traits,

But you have no idea of the disaster it brings, the brokenness it makes,

Loving someone is not like wrapping them in little gift with perfect bow ties,

Or else you’ll end up fooling yourself and live a complete lie.

Everyday should be a wonderful journey, discovering the person we both ought to be,

Do not posses nor control me, I will also let you fly freely,

Let’s just simply be with each other and communicate effectively,

I’ll be your strength when you are weak, you’ll be my voice when I can’t speak,

Growing old together is what we both should seek, not a love affair ending in a week,

So do not start what you cannot finish, don’t serve the entree if you will not stay for the main dish,

It’s the only thing I ask of you, my inner most deepest wish,

So go ahead be frank while nobody’s watching, definitely it will wound me but only for awhile,

Rather than keeping me in the dark with your smile, and watch all the lies mount up in a pile,

I will simply wipe my tears away, don’t worry I’ll take all the responsibility as I watch you walk away,

With no regrets I’ll tell myself it’s okay, I’ll get over you one of these days, then laugh sadly as I heaved, it was brave of me to fall in love anyway.

Where My Heart Rest....

These walls that you built did not keep me warm from the coldness of your heart,

The roof above my head that hangs a grand chandelier did not protect me from the rain of tears that I shed,

A table filled of empty chairs, golden plates, crystal glasses and silverware but no laughter in the air,

I stared at the painting as you held my hand for all the world to see like a fairy tale fantasy, only to wake in the middle of the night realizing you’re not beside me.

Everyday I would hear your distant voice telling me it was all for me the things you slave for, You wanted to gain the world for me, but I just wanted YOU cause you were my world.

Tell me where is this place that we built in our dreams, as I sit alone in the dark every waking minutes?

Didn’t we use to dance in the clouds where stars shone and angels majestically sang?

Yes things were so simple then, there was only you and me, two people deeply dedicated to each other through hope, through faith, and through love.

I did not need a house all I wanted was a home, where I can be my not so perfect self with no trace of alienation,

All we needed was a promise to make it work no matter what even if sometimes we both fell short of expectations,

I had hope to walk with you hand in hand in one direction,

Because in your heart is where my heart rest, and your absence left me heartless....your golden house darling was nothing but an abode of emptiness, a mountain full of rejection.

To Serenade a Fearless Mind

There are no limits, no boundaries in a free thinkers head

Where passion rules, all ordinary becomes a gift

I need not jump a cliff, but simply cross the street to say yes I got to the other side,

 I need not bleed and die to say I lived, but simply smile as I walk my way in every mile,

Did you mistaken me for a coward when I cried in front of you with a broken heart?

Did you take me for a beggar when I was dressed in rags in the midst of an expectant crowd?

I am not Juliet nor Romeo a character in a love story,

I cried because I was honest, I was poorly dressed because I was detached of any superficial expectations, and I am not a pigment of a writers imagination but a child from my mothers’ womb.

Poorly you cannot read my heart, and neither will I try to read yours.

So stop measuring my strength, for you have not seen the fruits of my hands.

But only one can serenade my fearless mind, HE who gives me strength and keeps my faith. HE makes me swing and dance to the music of my heart and have you ever heard the joyful hymn of your soul, the joyful sound of peace.

Kneel with me my dearest, I will pray that HE keep us safe....You see I am fearless for I have given up my entire hope to faith. 

A letter to my unborn child

My child I am your mother hear my words, the world that welcomes you is a cold and lonely place, you may feel the gust of wind but don’t worry I am here to comfort you, I shall watch your first tear drop and wait till dawn for your first smile, your scream of existence shall be music to my ears, yes my child I shall wipe the blood on your skin and fill you with the scent of motherly love.

My dear child one day when you have learn to walk and run to my arms, I know that soon enough you will go your own way, so heed my words I may not always be by your side for there are things beyond our understanding as life unfold. Time is not within our grasp for the future is yet to be seen. One day I may not be there to wipe your tears, to heal your scratched knee, to keep you from a broken heart. I am but human myself and have limitations, I know to you I may be invulnerable and immortal but I too must bleed if wounded and cease to breathe.

My child be strong to face the world, to walk your own path that will lead you to your dreams, expect the world to be unkind but be kind in return, expect the world to be hostile but be warm in return, your blessing are not to be kept but to be shared for that is what is truly to be blessed. Do all of this and I will not bring my woes to the grave, for you need not my protection for you have learned to build your own fortress. So in my memory if I may not be beside you picture me walking hand in hand while singing this song:

A memory I leave you for every flower that blooms will remind you of my love,

Do not weep, nor mourn for my loss for I am not one with the earth,

I am the gentle breeze that whisper in a cold winter night,

I am the moon that lights and guides your path in the evening sky,

I am the star that winks at you and makes you smile,

My lovely child I can never die, because in your heart I will always be alive.  

Faith, Hope and Love

Your silence was loud enough for me to hear your heartbeat,

I’m holding on to a dream that one day I’ll be touching your face,

Embracing the core of your very soul giving me eternal bliss,

No words to describe this wonderful experience that gave me a sense of being,

In times of distress I was born to be your strength,

To be your light in times of endless darkness,

I will not just hold your hand,

But I will be fighting your battle until the very end.

Using the shield of Hope, the sword of Love and the daggers of Faith,

We’ll both journey through hell and conquer,

And win the hearts of those who hate.  

Regrets

 

 

 

 

 

REGRETS

 

By: Bertha

 

I remember my love telling me,

He was afraid he would miss out on love the moment he met me that’s why he pursued me,

He was afraid of being alone that’s why he stayed with me,

He was afraid that he would break my heart if he cheated that’s why he was loyal to me,

He was afraid he would regret it for the rest of his life if he did not marry me so he proposed to me,

So I held his right hand and touched his face,

The first time I met you I firmly believed you were the one for me,

Then as time goes by my heart knew that you were my soul mate that’s why I stayed with you,

And I never cheated because I chose to be loyal to you,

And when I married you never a second in that moment when I was standing at the altar was I afraid of anything that would stand in the way of my vows because I choose you to be my partner till I cease to exist, so I never knew what fear was....

For or me REGRET always have been a six letter word, nothing but a useless verb.